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Challenge

I was born premature, weighing 1.5 pounds and small enough to fit in my mom’s hand. After months in the NICU, I was finally able to go home and live with my parents, but I was left physically weaker than other children my age. Doctors told my parents that exercising would help me get stronger, so as soon as I was old enough, they enrolled me in a myriad of sports programs: swim team, ice skating lessons, tennis clinics, and many more. At first, any kind of physical exertion beyond walking left me out of breath, so I frequently had to sit on the sidelines and rest. I understood that I was exercising to get stronger, but I still could barely move without huffing and puffing, all the while the other kids ran circles around me. I quickly became frustrated with my body’s limitations. Every time I was forced to sit and watch everyone else having fun without me, I considered asking my parents to let me quit. I was barely making any progress, and at this rate there was no way I could ever catc...

Name

My parents were born in China and immigrated to the US before I was born. They gave me two names, one Chinese and one English. My Chinese name, 张楚玉, has three parts: 张 ( zhāng ) is my surname that I got from my dad. It is a very common surname, so much so that when I was a kid, I would hear about other people with the name 张 from the news and listening to my parents’ conversations and think, “They have the same name as me, so they must be family!” My given name, or “first” name, is 楚玉 and was chosen by my mom. 玉 ( yù ) is a generational name that I share with my brother. 楚 ( chǔ ) comes from my mom’s birthplace. She was born and raised in Hubei, a province in central China. During the Zhou dynasty, that region was part of the Chu state (楚国 in Chinese), and the 楚 in 楚国 became part of my name. It feels pretty cool to be named after an ancient Chinese state, but I also like that my name strengthens my connection with my mom, as I’m literally named after her home. My full English name is C...